Pardon the Fall Out Boy-esque title, but I feel like musing about life right now.
Today is my last day of 'freedom', so to speak. That's not to say that work is like being stripped of your essential rights, but there won't be a day now - whether I'm at the desk, at home, on vacation, or anywhere else I am - that passes when I can be free of any obligation other than to enjoy myself. That being said, I do look forward to starting. It's a mix of excitement - I highly enjoyed working on my desk last summer, and I anticipate it being just as good, but with more responsibility. At the same time, the metrics by which I'll be judged are much more subjective. As someone on the bottom of the food chain, it's hard to claim that I will be driving desk performance as my colleagues will be - which is really the only quantitative metric around. No grades, no curve, nothing. While I have had my qualms about college in the past, the one thing I will give much credit to it for is that it prepared me for the work environment.
In the end, I think I'll be good to go. The learning curve will be steep, to be sure, but I'm confident that I should overcome it.
The second part to ponder is personal. My girlfriend and I have been together for about nine months, and as I've told her many a time, her being in my life has been the best thing that's happened to me. That being said, I've wondered how it's possible to be the best boyfriend you can be when you're a secondary part of her everyday life - not out of any fault of your own other than distance. And with work starting, the communication we have will likely be reduced to a phone call at night, at most. At some point, it may even be a string of days or a week that goes by without any contact at all. I love her dearly, but coping with talking with her sporadically and seeing her even less will be a test of commitment and the strength of our relationship.
We shall see what happens.