Pardon the Fall Out Boy-esque title, but I feel like musing about life right now.
Today is my last day of 'freedom', so to speak. That's not to say that work is like being stripped of your essential rights, but there won't be a day now - whether I'm at the desk, at home, on vacation, or anywhere else I am - that passes when I can be free of any obligation other than to enjoy myself. That being said, I do look forward to starting. It's a mix of excitement - I highly enjoyed working on my desk last summer, and I anticipate it being just as good, but with more responsibility. At the same time, the metrics by which I'll be judged are much more subjective. As someone on the bottom of the food chain, it's hard to claim that I will be driving desk performance as my colleagues will be - which is really the only quantitative metric around. No grades, no curve, nothing. While I have had my qualms about college in the past, the one thing I will give much credit to it for is that it prepared me for the work environment.
In the end, I think I'll be good to go. The learning curve will be steep, to be sure, but I'm confident that I should overcome it.
The second part to ponder is personal. My girlfriend and I have been together for about nine months, and as I've told her many a time, her being in my life has been the best thing that's happened to me. That being said, I've wondered how it's possible to be the best boyfriend you can be when you're a secondary part of her everyday life - not out of any fault of your own other than distance. And with work starting, the communication we have will likely be reduced to a phone call at night, at most. At some point, it may even be a string of days or a week that goes by without any contact at all. I love her dearly, but coping with talking with her sporadically and seeing her even less will be a test of commitment and the strength of our relationship.
We shall see what happens.
1 comment:
Dear My Favorite Blog Writer,
I want to tell you that you are only secondary w.r.t. the time I spent elsewhere, namely at Penn and in classes. You are NOT, however, secondary to what I hold dear. More than 9 months have passed and each day I find myself falling for you more and more. It'll be indisputably hard but I am ready to make that commitment. I think it would be a grave mistake on my part if I were to let go of one of the most amazing persons I have met. Aside from your obvious talents and intellect, you are also one of the most dependable people I have and you are a great listener especially to a rambler and ranter like me. I am really lucky to have you and I feel that way more and more as I get to know you better. I obviously have only been with you for only less than a year and I'm sure I haven't gotten to know all of you. But I can honestly say that from the preview, I really would like to stay with you for a long time (especially since I've turned you into such a good cook). Anyway, I hope you'll bear with me and bear with us. No one ever bets on a long distance relationship working but I think if there is anyone with the will and understanding to do it, it would be us. :) Good night, Asuka. And in case you need a reminder for the umpteenth time, I love you. <3
Oh and want to on a date with me?? :) when I come to New York? You pick the activity (no Starcraft).
Love,
Your biggest fan
P.s. If I'm verbose, it's because it's late. :P
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